Signing the Lease

Be willing to make decisions. That’s the most important quality in a good leader. Don’t fall victim to the what I call the ready-aim-aim-aim syndrome. You must be willing to fire. ~ T. Boone Pickens

Still have lots and lots on my mind, but I am beginning to slow down, evaluate and channel this energy I am experiencing now. It is not easy for me to choose to “do nothing”, yet, I know it is a necessary step in my journey. I was in an environment a little over a year ago and someone asked me how things were going. I tried in vain to give her a positive answer and I could not. Absolutely nothing came out of my mouth, I could not lie about the situation or even make it seem better than it was. She laughed, then said to me, “You are still renting, you have not signed the lease yet.” I told her that was exactly in. I had never thought of it that way before.

Usually, when I am in a new environment, the first thing to move in with me are all my toys, pictures and a plant. Well, I brought my pictures in to remind me of why I was doing what I was doing and to keep me focused on why I was there. I brought my toys because I am a creative and I need constant stimulation to crank out designs and ideas (get your mind out of the gutter…my toys are creativity books, desk games and paper creatures). I always bring in a plant because I need to feel connected to nature when I am stuck inside all day. In this particular environment, I did not bring a plant for months. Eventually, I did bring in a pink poinsettia I was given during Christmas and it did cheer up the gray space.

I never moved in there completely. I thought I could and I tried, but it was not meant to be. When you are made to feel unwelcome, constantly told you are not welcome and set up to fail, it is a challenge to invest anymore energy than necessary in a place that clearly does not want you there. I believe misery loves company and this was a miserable place full of miserable people.

Now, I am in a better environment with some pretty good neighbors that value my contribution to the neighborhood. I know I was brought here because I needed a break from constant drama and psycho people. I don’t know for sure if this is my final destination or not or whether I will bring in a plant and sign the lease.

It all goes back to that doing nothing thing, being patient and waiting to see what happens. I tell you, God’s timeline is no joke. He truly makes you wait until the time is just right and I must admit, things have happened in my life at just the right time. That is a rather comforting feeling.