What I Am Missing

I am missing a lot of things lately. Sunshine being one of them. This winter has been exhausting and draining on my spirit. Sunshine, when we have it, is a welcome blessing.

I am missing the outdoors. I work in a suburban area and it does not lend itself to much green space or scope for the imagination. I am considering  taking my camera with me everyday and sitting in coffee shops and cafes to people watch and listen to conversations. What better way to improve my writing than to listen to the way people talk to each other.

I am missing my picture stories. I wonder if blogging everyday for two months did not burn me out. Writing, at times, has not come as easily to me as it normally does.

I miss my mojo, my desire to create and my desire to write. Making art and writing are things I have always done. Yet, I find myself standing in front of my art supplies completely uninspired. This uncreative space, I no longer want to dwell in it. It sucks. I have been doing a lot of writing, but it has been mental mind-dumping rather than something I care to share.

I keep feeling like I need to be doing something, but this is not the message God is sending me. He keeps telling me to be still. So, I am meditating on this stillness. Nurturing my soul and resting my body. I admit, I am exhausted and this stillness is obviously something I need to embrace right now…not later, right now. It is time I took better care of myself and stillness is one way I can do that. It is how I can return to center and regain my focus. Stillness is a gift I will give to myself.