Evaluating Needs and What I Allow In My Life

I read a lot. I mean A LOT. I read as part of my full-time job. Easily, I have more face time with the computer than anyone in my organization. I love this part of my job. Reading and learning new things, constantly filling my head with some new knowledge. At the same time, I realize I have to filter out a lot of the nonsense on the web. There is a lot of garbage out there. And, as a result, I don’t read a lot of blogs anymore. Whatever reason I used to read them daily is no longer a need I have. I had to be real honest with myself and ask why was I allowing so much reading in my life that was not contributing to my life. Also, I discovered all that reading stopped me from living. Instead of doing more of what I loved, photography, vlogging, writing, working out, etc. I was reading about what everyone else was doing.

Well, not anymore. I had a friend pass away recently, still in her 30s and her death hit me really hard. I evaluated my own life, wondering if I was treading water or taking action towards my dreams. It is one thing to ask God to open doors for you and show you favor, it is another to just stand there when he does because you don’t know what to do when you walk through. I am now walking through the doors and simply taking another step. I don’t have to know exactly where I am going, not when I trust His guiding my footsteps. I am not learning to trust myself. Filtering what I allow myself to read and giving myself permission to not read things if they do not fit my needs. It is okay to give yourself that kind of grace and that kind of peace.