I believe I am in a holding pattern. No, I know I am.

There is no other explanation for the trials I am enduring at this point in my life. I admit, it has not been the easiest space to occupy. It has been downright painful and hurtful. I have been disappointed in someone I trusted with every area of my life. Having your trust violated, stomped on and destroyed leaves you beyond numb, beyond angry and beyond hurt…it just leaves you…abandoned. There is no worse feeling than to know that someone who proclaimed to care for you would simply abandon you on every level possible. But, I can tell you this. This ending is actually a new beginning for me.

My current holding pattern calls me to be still and be silent. It calls me to trust that there is a purpose, a plan and a process for what I am going through, and I find comfort in that. I am not feeling anxious about my future, as I know He has a good plan for my life. He is about to do a new thing and how can I not be excited about that? I believe attitude makes all the difference in how you endure trials. You can either complain and blame others for your problems or you can learn the lesson in the situation.

I am called to rest, now, not do. This morning, I felt this energy vibrating inside of me…it has me restless. I feel like I need to be doing something. Then I read this scripture: “Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him…” Psalm 37:7 NIV. Well, that just about says it all. So, I will be still and I will on Him. I know my faith and patience are being tested. I have every intention of passing the test and moving beyond this current place.